MY LIFE IN AN ALBUM ,

Charles Hamilton means the world to me. as weird as it may sound, it's just unexplainable! It's not like he's a greatest rapper alive but I can't live without him. I know I sound like a creep saying all of this .. but still! Haha, my brother Darius said i'm a creep because i'm obsessed with a man who doesn't even know me. But so what! I feel this man through music :) Trust me, this doesn't mean if I ever see him i'm gonna trample him and scratch his eyeballs out, but .. I can't live with his music in my life!
Dear Charles Hamilton.. if you ever read this.. I think your great, apart from the public eye, I see a lot in you [: // Okay .. maybe I am a creep because I KNOW he's never gonna read this :/ haha. Everybody go download Normalcy though! =]

tuesday morning.

i told you guys i'd blog on sunday. fuck a sunday. my weekend sucked ass. last night was terrible. but this morning, i woke up to the best news ever. a new in studio video of one of the cool kids songs that's from their Merry Christmas FreEp :) I have such great friends, and that's one thing i need to add. if it wasn't for dana michelle, I wouldn't have even seen this. but just like i'm the myspace/facebook junkie, she's the fucking WORLDSTARJUNKIE FORREAL. she be knowing EVERYTHING. like damn d? do you work for WS or something? haha, but ilu :]
here's the video.

of course i have a few things to say. FIRST OFF, chuck coulda get the drawls in the beginning of the video because first of all, he was on his grown man -- smoking that blunt. mm mmm mmm. & secondly because he reallyyy looks like ______ :) oww. haha. also, i really think that guy Boldy James needs to dig a ditch and crawl in it and stay there. WHO THE FUCK IS HE?! then of course, mikey ... shhhhiiiittttt. heaven only knows! all i can say is, when i get my tattoo to match his... mmm :] i'ma feel complete. haha.

but i hope you guys enjoyed this as much as i did ;] happy tuesday btw.

Merry Christmas FreEP!

greatest christmas gift EVER ! thanks to Charles Ellerbe :]
Look closely at the two santas, it's Chuck & Mikey! :)


MERRY CHRISTMASSS .

christmas break.

HAPPY WEDNESDAY!
First day of Christmas Break. Doobie poppin, nails always poppin, but my eyebrows hurt! The man in the nail salon who did these shits fucked me up! He spent like an hour on the left side, and 2 minutes on the right -__- I'm like wtf?! My big sister D said they look fine but like, wtf. They burrrrnnn :( Anyways, tomorrow I'm partying with my cousins & my lil bro Moochie. Yesss! Can you say sauced? Haha, bouta have so much fun. For christmas?! I'm gonna be at grandma's houseee, relaxing with the family of course. On Saturday, my time goes to my bestbitchontheplanet, VG :) Turning the mall upside down with her then that night i'll be with my boyfriend & his homies,& my homies :] Hmm, I just texted him & asked him can we see the Chipmunk movie,haha. Hopefully he says yesss. Then starting sunday? I'm freeeee. I doubt I'll be staying In the house! Make plans with me :]

Anyway, I probably won't post a personal blog until like, saturday night. That'll have the complete rundown of how everything went. hopefully all goes well! btw, tell me your plans for the holidays! i'm interesteddd :)

KATY, NOOO! :(

breaking fuking news?
at least for me it is. but i'm damn near in tears. when did Katy leave Travy for Russell? These are photos from just YESTERDAY. these two were caught kanoodling in a coffee shop in LONDON! Omfg :( I feel like i'm in a shattered dream! I mean.. it's not that serious, but it's serious! i bet they've been dating for maaaadddd long now. where the fuck have I been? katy's a complete and total pisser. I don't wanna hear shit else from or about that bitch. ALL KATY PERRY SUPPORT STOPS NOW. but the saddest shame is.. Katy and Russell look amazing & happy together : / LOL, ugh.. oh well. more power to them.


I'm not even gonna lie, they look cute. I still love you Katy :]
Travy, holla if you need me (: lmfao.

watch her feet.

Jessica Simpson just does it for me :]

Forever Young ,

Idk if you guys saw this video already but.. it has to grow on me. It's bad enough i'm scared of Jay-Z as it is (yes i have my reasons) but this video just isn't all that great..

your a DEAD butterfly , give up.

OH, BITCH PLEASE!
i'm about to just turn this shit into a mariah carey
haters blog. she's too old now! damn.

cudi get ,

ON everything I love, I need a man like this ! Style & the smile! Woo, lmao. I thought I was over Kid Cudi for the past few weeks but naaa, I'm still on. We still getting married. Of course after I marry, Mikey Rocks, Wiz Khalifa, Gudda, & Soulja Boy. AND Get pregnant by Tyga :)

do it for daddy ; ]

Pink & the numero 5 ' (:
happy sunday !

smFh ,

Mariah Carey's old ass BUGS ME! Nicki's half looks cute. Mariah Carey look like she has on my grandmother's dress. BITCH GIVE IT UP!

happy ending,&beginning.

I can truly say i'm all smiles at this point in my life. It's a new year for me, I'm way more mature than last year & I plan to make better decisions, starting with numero e-uno :) I'm transferring out of my highschool sooner than soon, and when I transfer -- my outside life will be completely shut DOWN on week days. I have to get out of high school! Numero dos, I've seperated the people from the squares like a nicotine patch :] I know exactly who my friends are at the moment but who's to say they'll be around for too much longer? I went thru my phone and deleted the people that I either, don't talk to anymore. or don't WANNA talk to anymore. I'm not gonna say it was a lot, but it was enough to say i'm onto a fresh start. Numero tres, relationships? You'd expect me to say I'm not in one since I'm basically trying to do the biggest bit of stress ridding but I actually am. After spending an entire summer with hoes & exgirlfriends, I finally have a guy I like to call .. boyfriend :] Me & him just MATCH, ugh It's crazy. Like, he's the only guy I've stayed up on the phone with until 6:30 AM , RIGHT BEFORE SCHOOL! Just to laugh and talk. No arguements, no bullshit, no fake shit. But that all ties in with new beginnings. I can already tell, me & him are gonna clash TERRIBLY when we argue. I'm waiting for our second arguement. Yes, second .. because the first was about a past that I had a hard time getting over but he was right, and I was wrong.. and now I'm only focused on him. And he bought me a christmas gift! Lol. His mommy told him to wrap it, but he said no. I'm tryna convince him to wrap it though, so most likely he will. Because i'm his Stink AND my ringtone on his phone is LilWayne - "That's My Nigga" :) Ugh. But anyways, back to how I said the 18th was New Years for me. The 17th was New Years Eve, that was Me & Kim's anniversary. I slept that night away. He called me at 11:30 but .. blah. I can't even say I'm over him because that shit doesn't happen over night. But I can say I don't feel the need to try with him anymore. Weather this feeling lasts a few days, a few weeks, a few months.. through the process of either getting over him or us getting back on track, he'll always have a spot with me. I almost get mad everytime I think about all his other hoes but then again, they're getting played not me. & I've actually come to the conclusion that i LOVE his game -- no sarcasm :] All I can say is, newbie hoes better enjoy their security while they can. LMAO ; ) Btw, I got my nails done today ^__^ ow oww owww.

a day, made.

this shit is so cute! omfg :]

121708 , 121709 .

Not gonna say too much abt todays date becus ppl put their hearts into words I state on this blog, smh.
If only I could quote that guy on a few choice words he spoke.. haha, i won't. for the sake of you.
but all 'm gonna say is good luck to you AND the rest of them & i'm gonna be here regardless.
LMFAO , kthanksbye.

-- sunshineee , haha.

song of the day:

happy days ,

Stayed home from escuela today. boyfriend #2 text me talking about he bought me a gift. LMAO. he's just a messs. i didn't even fill you guys in about boyfriend #2! lol, i won't. no need to, just know he exist :] haha. and I spent some time w. Kim today ^__^ I had fun, even though he kept grabbing me by my collar :( I couldn't help but laugh at him. Things were so fucking cool between us today. Until the end.. things didn't get messed up but things happened and i felt two tears drop. BUT ONLY TWO! Cuz i'ma thug :] Lol. And he kept on talking about how my uggs were new -__- they aren't new! Lol, But still i'm happy with where me and him stand. [ MAGIC , MAGIC , MAGIC ] -- no sparks :) haha I love that kid! But I'm sitting here bumping all this Day 26 music because lastnight , my two favorite losers were singing mad Day 26 but they are so funny. And they can actually kinda sing. Lol. I'm supposed to be filling out my working papers but I keep getting sidetracked! I just ate dinner so I think I'll be able to focus more, -- either that or i'm going to fall asleep. (Yes, drool included) LOL. But yeaaa , Just felt like updating! About to go to the store for a Diet Coke w. Mommy :)

-- happy tuesday !

day = MADE !

it's obvious that any video of TCK makes my day, so here it goes. LOL. i found myself on facebook
posting a status and this video was on the side in the ADs! which was really creepy because I had
just finished searching for pics of Mikey's tattoo sleve because I wanna get the same one :)
and on top of all my cool kids hype, here lies rapheal saadiq ! the man that i WILL marry.
phew, i love love LOVE this video.
anyways, enjoy thisssss -- because i know i did! :]

Souljaboy's Sexy Ass w. New Tattoos.

TATTOOS ON HIS FACE! AHHHH! :)
i've loved this man for SO LONG!

Cameron Jibril Thomaz vs. Michael Stevenson.

yes, Wiz Khalifa vs. Tyga :)

When it comes to these two men, Idk who to choose! :D Omg. They both do something to me! Cameron & Michael. Ew.. Wiz & Tyga = YES :) These are like ... 3some worthy boys if we go for looks. But if we go for supposed sex game I'd choose Trey Songz & Nicki Minaj. LOL. Anyway, I have girls that call Wiz ugly, they are -- OUT OF THEIR LIDS! Smh.. My nxst boyfriend has to be tatted like THIS tho! And if I don't find a nigga that's tatted like this? I guess I WON'T be having a fuckin ' boyfriend! ^__^

Young Mula Baby,<3

So, let's just say young money has finally won my heart with this shit! At first I just liked the song, but the video took the fucking cakeee. After I saw it come on 106 & Park... wait wait wait. 106 & Park? Lmao, BET is a nigger channel that I hate, and I actually watched 106 & Park because Mack & Nicki were coming on :] Everybody knows I hate Nicki but that bitch has officially grown on me. That blonde hair busted MY nut :) Whewwww. Anyways , I watched the video, sang along with it, smiled laughed all that, screamed.. yeah.. gudda & tyga are on my sexlist! :] But, after the video, this is the status update I posted on FB,
"YM:Bedrock video is fuckin ' TUFFF ! Hella BadBitches. -Wayne looks GOOD. Nicki is my BITCH. Gudda will be my babys FATHER. Tyga is MY FUCKING HUSBAND ♥"

Good review, good review. Lol. My personal opinion is that Drake had the best part of the video though! Two bad bitches in the bathroom?! What?! And it was cute how he knocked on the door and Nicki came out like a bratty little sister :) I love shit like that! Also, Tyga's part was cute as helllll. That is one hell of a SMALL man, GORGEOUS , SMALL , TATTED -- yummy, might I add? The girl in the bed with him could had been WAY PRETTIER though. Smh. some of the girls in the video wasn't cuttin it for me but idk.. Lol.

& IDK Where this new love for them will take me though. It could spoil, or grow. I have a bad feeling that it'll GROW, lmao. I can't wait for Short Dawg & Lil Twist to really get some shine. Because when they do? It's a rap :) Mad people say they're corney, but I like them! [:

pretty wings.

nobody knows this, but i LIVE FOR acoustic covers.. ugh.
this guy is o.d amazinggg - www.youtube.com/JRAquinomusic

sizzy !

most well thought out thing i've seen in a while.
the homie psycho is so creative.
this shit took the cake.

the college dropouts,not.

goodbye chs. yup, it only makes sense. get ridda the baddest outta the bunch. lol. me & my brother zay are basically no longer students at our high school. sucks for us. well, it really sucks for me. im transferring out. they just gave him a "long ass vacation". i know for a fact mom's gonna trip, flip, & skip all over this fucking house when she gets home but i don't care. the only thing i'm worried about is the circle. i live by bryan's lame ass (ilu). zay & chad are as close as neighbors. milz lives by the school. and dean live's by the hill -- hellaaa ' spread out. the circle IS an everywhere thing. in school, outta school. phone calls, texting. dean's garage. lol, all that. these lil niggas became a part of me. i've honestly only argued w. chad ONCE. never argued w. zay. never argued w. milz. ALWAYS argue with bryan & dean but still. lol, no matter what these niggas is FAM. bros before hoes is the perfect statement. it is what it is forever. im just kinda distraught over how the world tryna split us up. but then again, whatever. these are my sons forever.

| pops ' me , braxxx ' chad , bryan ' bryan , zay ' isaiah , milz ' jamil * |
( chad , milz , bryan ).

r. les for pres <3

as old as this video is, it never makes me respond any different. i watch this & get so freaking excited every single time! ryan leslie is amazing. by the way, this song is dedicated to 2 of my previous shorties and 1 of my previous niggas. haha, damn. i don't usually make em share songs but this shit is the truth!

| Ryan Leslie - "Promise Not To Call" |

well deserved.

hmm. i think i deserve something like this. date, get married, get pregnant with your first child and live happily ever after. HOPEFULLY they live happily ever after because i can totally see past the fact that they had a "secluded" wedding. and his tux was rented for $150 bucks -__- i love them from the bottom to the tippytop. the dream makes great music & christina is a beatiful girl. enough said.

clowd9?

www.getxclowded.blogspot.com
total fucking failure sike. i just looked over that entire blog & i see what could have been so fucking successful. the least bit of people i had as a "team" bailed on me. where's phresh? where's brandon? where's ja? dished all the ideas out, but didn't put in any work. i did all the designs, i did all the promotion. they just said what should and should not be, and i actually considered shit ! i feel like i was being fooled back then but i know i really wasn't. i just wasn't seeing how much better shit would be as an independent project. which is why i plan to pick back up. SERIOUSLY. it's gonna be a while before i just this shit DONE, but it will be done. thats a promise to myself. don't hit me up asking when, dishing out ideas, and holding your palms out because that shit's NOT gonna happen this time.

just thought i'd inform you all.